|The Grain Mother of Çatalhöyük|
It's the time of year when excitement is building as prospective attendees are looking forward to their trips to Glastonbury for the forthcoming Goddess Conference.
This year's conference focuses on Honouring the Great Abundant Life-Giving Mother at Lammas; so heavy focus on the Mother archetype of the Goddess.
I've been asked by many if I'm going this year, however I am not. It is an irony that I'm not going as I felt particularly drawn to this conference's focus. However, the pending Olympics did not leave me feeling very confident about leaving my youngest daughter when it is causing some disruption around our neighbourhood. I felt my mothering skills as protector were better served at home.
Lately, though, I've been thinking that it may be with good reason that I'm not attending this year as I seem to be moving into a new phase in my life. I've long been identifying with the face of the Mother Goddess in being a mother myself. This is changing.
I'm now 42 and will be 43 in a few months. Two of my daughters have reached adulthood and my youngest is not far behind. And I seemed to have entered a peri-menopausal state in my menstrual cycles. It's a bit early, but not unheard of.
We all know the triple Goddess archetype of Maiden, Mother, Crone. On the Wheel of Britannia we honour Her as Maiden, Lover, Mother, Crone. However, many also embrace yet another Goddess archetype that sits between Mother and Crone - that of the Queen.
I feel that I am entering this phase of life, slowly, gracefully. I can feel this face of the Goddess creeping in. I'm still a Mother, but not yet a Crone (no where close!), but I'm coming into a phase being a more mature mother, learning to embrace my wisdom more and to let go of the past.
On the Wheel of Britannia we see this phase of a woman's life in the Autumn Equinox - a woman who is a mature mother, beautiful, still vibrant and full of life, grounded in herself and the world around her.
I was already looking forward to next year's conference when we explore the Mother Goddess of Earth but I am even more so now knowing that this is an aspect that I am embracing more and more with each turn of the Wheel. It still feels a bit early. I think I'm a couple years off before fully embracing the Queen archetype, but as I said, it's certainly creeping in. I'm learning to embrace the Queen and honour and celebrate this phase of life.
Roll on 2013!!